Im sierra. I make mistakes. But I learn from them. Life is up and down. Things have to go bad, so you know when things are going good. This is my diary and it explains everything ive ever thought. Enjoy.
well like i said me and katelyn should sleep. were going to go and be awesome at the gym @ 5 am. hellz yes. but were not sleepy and we have to wake up in 3 hours soo. this should get interesting.
my back is fried. i look like a lobster. katelyns boobs are fried. were just an awesome mess. im glad i wont be lonely tonight. it was strange waking up by myself.
so boys suck. four boys suck even more.
1. Stephen- hes fun. nothing serious. just someone to mess around with. no regrets. well see where that goes.
2. Evan- sweetheart. funny. but not gonna happen. i should stop teasing him. that would prolly help.
3. Cody- well. hmm. i might like him but im not over #4, which is wierd cause its been a long time since weve been together. a long long time. and i only like #4 when we are togther so. hmm. cody and me is a could be. but i like being single. and cody just pissed me off. i dont have to explain myself to someone. especially someone im not dating. maybe well hangout one day. maybe….
4. Nano—- well Nano is Nano. always will be. but thats what i like about him. i like a lots. when we are together its like its just me and him, no one else. we just have fun and its cute. we almost kiss. but he refrains. and i hate it. he refuses to answer my calls or texts. so me and katelyn creep (: were awesome at it. but me and Nano will hang accidently and it sucks because im usually over him until were together. and hes purposefully hiding the fact that he has a girlfriend from me. awesome Nano. I just do not know what is up with him. Either drop completly out of my life. or do something about us. k.thanks.
oh katelyn. im glad weve gotten closer and have become bffs. you are fun. and you will find a guy. that is fun and will talk to you about life and confide in you. i promise. maybe luke will turn out to be that guy. itll happen
and ashley… cause i know youll read this cause youll be shocked im actually blogging. im really glad you and ryan are working out. it seems to be going good. and ryan may not be my first choice. but he makes you happy and i love you so thats what counts.
alright.. well. im going to try to head to bed. cause if not we will die in the am. we will anyway. but maybe not by falling off the bikes from sleep deprivation.
so goodnight tumblr. goodnight world. please make more sense tomorow. kthanks.
Dear Miss Wakeland. everything is plagiarized get over it. fuck MLA, its overrated, if you would let us be creative and use materials, you would see what we really are made of, instead you criticize us when we use something to help our brains get going.
so… me and ashley.. have been best friends for awhile now. were both sick of high school drama. and basically high school in general.
yay for snow days. we are going to let loose and just have a much needed relaxing and fun day. we havent been able to do this in forever.
who knows what awaits us? with us anything is seriously possible. irony rules our lives, hopefully today god will give his own personal jokes a break and let us have fun without the drama that follows.
i cannot wait for today. ash is straightening her hair right now and we are talking about boys. what else. hello high school. im thinking the only solution is to move to another state where we know no one…
but that wont happen. cause im sure we would know someone who would be tied in to this continuous circle of drama we cannot escape.
oh well. today is our break. and it is much needed. :)
sorry this blog is very random and not one of my bests but my brain has random crazy thoughts all the time and im just typing what ever pops into my head.
People make mistakes. I’m a person, therfore I make mistakes. I wouldn’t say last night was a complete mistake because i will never regret some of the things that happened.
The things that happened needed to happen. they needed to be said and i will forever be grateful for my stupidity. And i will forever be grateful that we made it out alive and unscathed, so we can enjoy Christmas.
I have some serious things to consider. I’m not sure how they will turn out, but they will turn out for the best. They always do. Even if you can’t see it at one bad moment in your life, in the end life is good and you have to go through bad times so you know when you are going through a good time.
He told me hes liked me since he saw me. He said I was cute and he got to know me, and he fell hard, but I had to ruin it by dating someone else. He told me it was fate and I couldn’t disagree. Every excuse i came up with for why should we, he came back with a why not. He called my bluff and I couldnt do a thing. The only excuse i had….I’m scared….give me time.
Why do I have to be scared? to take the chance, to jump into something completly new. Why do I have to think about it? Why am I scared to have a relationship? Relationships are complicated, they can hurt. I cant take my heart hurting anymore, but I cant hurt him because I want to be with him, but my mind wont let me because i keep thinking rationally but love shouldnt be rational it never is…
So what’s the problem? I will continue to think about this all throughout the night. I don’t know what I will decide because at the moment everything is up and down and I am stuck in the middle and I really do not know what I will decide.
I honestly can’t see myself dating him seriously. Friends with benefits…maybe. Best friends…..def. Only time will tell……
“Myth makes Echo the subject of longing and desire. Physics makes Echo the subject of distance and design. Where emotion and reason are concerned both claims are accurate. And where there is no Echo there is no description of space or love, There is only silence.”.
Echos have always creeped me out. They show that the place you are in is very long and you usually always hear echos when you are in the pitch black. But this book once again has challenged my beliefs. Because that statement is completley true. There is only silence if there isn’t an echo and isn’t silence scarier then knowing that the room actually ends somewhere?
In the book they used this as a comparison: When you drop a pebble in a well, you expect to hear it hit the ground with a thump, but when it doesn’t hit the ground it frightens you because then it seems to you the well never ends. Well an echo is proof that the room ends somewhere, without the echo, you have no proof that the room will ever end.
I love when you can’t put a book down and you sit up all night even though your exhausted just reading the next line just because you wanna know what it is going to say. This is one of those books, house of leaves. It really does make you think about everything and it also makes you laugh. My advice, READ IT.
Hhahahahah. This picture reminds me of Ashley’s house, soooo much. Everytime I am over there, I laugh like this until I can’t laugh anymore. It’s the best!
Ive learned that all of my true friends can make me laugh like this at one point. Laughing so hard, you literally can’t breathe and you are in pain, is probably the best way to make yourself feel better. Doesn’t make sense? well neither does life. Whoever said laughter is the best medicine, they were a genius. Laughter takes all stress away and literally makes you high on life. Anyday that I don’t laugh like this, usually turns out to be a bad day.
They usually look away. My stories actually help them look away. Maybe they even help me look away. But I guess that’s nothing new. We all create stories to protect ourselves”.
